Memento mori

As above, i am sick as a dog these few days. Sigh, this period of time i really need some care and love but i can't even think of where to look for one. Think it's myself who is pushing everybody away. Oh poor me, do cry me a river if you happens to take pity at me.

I am having sinusitis. This morning when i looked into the pc screen, i can actually feel the throbbing of my head and the migraine is just simply unbearable. I don't know how many errors i have made but frankly i think i rather don't care about it. Worst of all, in the afternoon, yet another stupid training which somehow in the end i need to do the presentation as the team leader and come out with a 2 weeks project. I am so so tired of ALL of these.

Sigh, i do need love. Where is my love? Companionship is rare for me i guess.. Even my best of friend would think i am rather possesive and patronising. Sigh..

Another funny thing, that day i gone to the clinic for my sinusitis MC, i actually read a stick up ad that tells us the 10 symptoms of detection for depression. And u know what, other than the suicidal attempt, i think i have 9 of them. OMG, am i having a psycho problem here?? Then i should need a psychiatric consultation then... would like to request for more MCs. That would serve my VP right, see if i could break the 2 days MCs she given to each staff.

I am rather glad that i am havnig streamyx now, at least i can download some movies and songs to watch and listen to. Orelse i think i will go crazy. Think of myself having no companionship, no friend, no life....!!! Perhaps i am rather pessismistic here. But being bad as i am, i think being lonely and loveless really do serve me right. Sigh...