Sunday, November 16
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Don't understand what my heart truly desires lately. Haven't got any friends which i can share this about. Rather pathetic, rather depressive, and rather foolishly believing there is still a better tomorrow for me.
Wish my Father in heaven would take away the curse that's on me. Wish that he can heals me from within, heal me back to my most pristine nature so that i can truly enjoy his blessing and togetherness.
I am far, so far from myself that sometimes i think i am rather disillusioned. A cold heart, so distance yet so near which doesn't reflect a correct state of mind. I am scorned, hated, reprimanded and criticised. Really don't know what i want for my life, wish i can just live my life as any other one around me. So happy, carefree and sometimes so carelessly flaunting their blissfulness which makes me feel like i would rather just leave this planet earth.
我的幸福呢?
